Heavy Loads

"God won't put more on you than you can bear."
Bullshit. He does it all the time! We aren't equipped
to manage, keep it all in order, deal with
stresses that keep adding up, each heavier,
it seems, that each successive layer. No pep talk
or illicit substance will enable us, no inspiration
from a speaker, tape, or book, not even his.
We aren't supposed to grow up that much. He
likes us child-like, needy, desperate for solutions.
It's his fail-safe. We can't bear this thing,
this current crisis unrelenting in its
pressure, so we ask for help, and he is always there
to give it. But he doesn't always come
in ways we'd choose, or on our schedule.
Perhaps he waits until we know the answer
won't be anything we've said or done or figured out.
He's jealous for the glory. Not trying to sound
ugly or ungrateful, but he is. When you're God,
it gets to be that simple.


(c) Ellen Gillette, 2014